Fear and Trust

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Psalm 56:3:  “Whenever I am afraid, I will trust in You”

I have to be honest with God about my fears.  He knows I have them.  I hold onto them because I feel as though I will be deemed “She of little faith” if I tell Him I’m afraid of the outcome.  But, if I don’t release it,

He can’t take it.

He can’t fix it.

He can’t comfort me.

He can’t heal me.

He can’t show me the divine beauty of the situation.

I hold onto fear and I put the curtain back up that Jesus tore down as He gave up His Spirit on the cross.  I hold onto the fear because I’m afraid that my fears will materialize if I tell Him.  Then the vicious cycle begins:  Each fear feeds another, that plants another, that grows another.  Fear begets more fear.

Then I’m in an all consuming pit that feels like the thickest mud in existence that exhausts me and drags me down further as I kick, struggle, and twist.

As I flail my arms, my Heavenly Father grabs hold of my hand and pulls me out.  He tells me, “It is not my intention for life to overcome you because Jesus has overcome the world. (John 16:33) I want EVERY PART of you.  Yes, even your fears and short comings and doubts because My power is made perfect in weakness.” (2 Corinthians 12:9)