As many of you my know, I have just created a blog. The thing is, I had not told my family, yet. First, because I was not sure I would have the gumption to do it. Then, when I did create the blog, I did not know if I would follow through. Thirdly, as I have inched along, I’ve just been wavering back and forth with my own insecurities (this process can be overwhelming and intimidating).
So, it’s been about a month and I decided to share the news with my family today. I was on the phone with my younger sister and I figure that I would tell her because she tends to be the mouth piece of the house hold. I proceed to tell her, (I’m paraphrasing here)
Hey sis, you know, I’ve created this blog. It’s pretty new and I’m really still trying to figure out my voice and point of view. I had not told you guys earlier because I was pretty nervous but, figured it’s been a month so, I wanted to let you all know what I was up to.
No joke, she was completely silent the whole time and then said, “Oh, our brother has one of those. He has like two millions followers.”
What?! First of all, I did not know my younger brother was on pop star status on his blog!!! No one told me!!
Second, there was no, “Hey good job, sis.” “What’s the website? We’ll check it out. Show you some support.” Zip. Zilch. Nada.
Growing up, we were not an openly affectionate family so, not a lot of kisses and hugging and all that mushy stuff. Yet! I was still hoping for a little, “Oh, cool!” or even a semi-enthusiastic, “What’s it about?” My big little brother (that’s what I call him because he’s younger but physically bigger), I wrote him about in prison and he writes me back and is like, “yeah, sis!” and he’s shooting off ideas and all that!
Oh well, I’m not super surprised but, it would have been nice to hear a little happiness in the response I heard over the phone. I’m still gonna keep on keeping on, though.
What do you all think of not so supportive supporters? Have you ever encountered them and if so, did it stop you or motivate you even more?